It’s been a little over one month since my precious princess was born, and it’s been hard, fun, upsetting, and a learning experience, but I have learned, it does get better!
Week One: M was born after 36 hours of labor. She had a minor fever after birth and a mild heart murmur, so they ran all sorts of extra tests. I was freaking out. I was upset. I was scared. Her fever was attributed to me having 3 epidurals, and her EKG and blood pressure tests all came back normal. She didn’t like to latch on the right side, so my nipple had 2 small blisters and a crack, making it really hard to nurse her on that side due to pain. By day 6, her heart murmur was much more quiet, and I cried almost as much as her when she got her first Hep B vaccine. She woke up every hour to eat or just fuss.
Week Two: She started sleeping a little better, but not if we had her out during the day; going out for visits to Grandpa and Grandma G’s farm meant no sleep at night. My nipple healed and nursing on the right side became tolerable. My pain from labor, however, was still intolerable. Still using padsicles (I’ll be adding a post about these very soon!), still using Dermoplast spray with the blue top (ahhhhh heaven in a can!), still using lidocaine gel. By a full 2 weeks old, her heart murmur was almost silent.
Week Three: M started waking up only 2-3 times a night, except when we go out. She loves snuggle time with Daddy, but also loves to pull his beard and chest hair. We’ve tried 4 types of bottles so Daddy can feed her, but she won’t take any of them. I’m lucky if I can get a 5 minute shower. By the end of the week, I finally feel good enough to leave the house and bring her to Opa and Kitty’s (my dad and stepmom), Grandpa R’s (father in law), Grandma Peach’s (grandmother in law), and even out to Pizza Hut with a friend of mine and her one year old
Week Four: M started the week fussy and ended it fussy. She also got a rash from using Huggies Lil’ Snugglers, and it has yet to go away, despite trying all sorts of stuff. For the fussiness, we tried gas drops, we tried extra burping, we tried lots of extra snuggles. The only thing that has worked has been snuggles. Needless to say, I have gotten nothing done, but at least my pain was gone and she still ate great. M has started giggling in her sleep, which makes all the fussiness worth it. She also weighs 10lbs 14 oz, which means she is up 1lb 8oz since birth!
While there were ups and downs with each week that went by, it gradually got better. She started sleeping better, I learned more about her and her needs, and we (her father and I) have had some great bonding time with our little girl. While it was pretty hard at times, it got a lot better than it was when we first brought her home. It just takes a while to learn about your baby, adjust to your baby, and for your baby to learn you and learn being outside of the womb. Frustrating as it can be, it does get better!